ok. this suddenly struck me as I was reviewing my day, last eve, as I do all these #TimeBlocking posts.
The reason I don’t much done, even after all these lovely plans, is that I spent most of my day, holding my breath, for something that may or may not come and knock me and my day over.
I don’t know if it’ll come or not. but my body is in near constant flight or fight mode. because to my mind and body, being caught blind sided is far worse.
I need to figure out a way to be calm and collected and to be ok if things fall by the wayside. both; what is coming at me, or my grand plans for the day.
i need to trust my gut, that what I am doing *is* the right thing to do in that moment. If that means that my planned life trajectory will slow down, then I need to clear time and review, and prioritise and have heart to hearts with folks, and / or be ok with life being the way it is.
Just putting these down on paper, seems to have unblocked something in me. Some progress then :)
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